crap. and then it turns beautiful.
really, sometimes i force myself to paint when i’m not feeling it and all i get for results are crap. i paint while thinking maybe the next one will come out _____ (insert happy/better word here). but nope, crap. and then…I STEP AWAY. for days. sometimes weeks. come back to the “crap” and seriously make it cool. (the piece above is an example of just that) often times, i find i surprise even myself. and i think to myself…now, that wasn’t so bad. why couldn’t i have done x,y,z before? and the answer to that is because i couldn’t. not on that day.
so now i know this secret (or not-so-secret anymore) about me. and i’m cool with it. when i am having a “force myself to paint” kinda day, in the back of my mind i tell myself…keep going, ’cause you know you’ll come back to it and something magical will happen. and when the magic happens…it’s awesome.